You guys, there are days that I just can't even. Anymore. I'm done. Today I thought "what would stress sound like?" I think it would be a decibel high enough to shatter glass within a 25 mile radius.
Do you ever get like that? I mean, real life here, be honest. Are there days when you just feel so in over your head that you just can't even anymore?
It's that feeling like life is hitting you from every side. You have friends and foes in your corner and sometimes can't see a clear difference. There is bad stress (the kind you grow from) and the good kind (the kind you grow from - no typo), and when it hits that certain decibel level you just stop everything and think "why am I trying so hard?"
I had this thought today. So I did a little self eval. Life seems to be swirling around my head and the last several weeks have found me questioning everything about myself. What it all boiled down to is am I enough?
When I was telling Jesus all of this and throwing myself a pity party, I thought about David, Joseph, Paul, Mary (all of them), C. S. Lewis, along with some family and friends and so many others. It was like a sea of faces of those who at some point in their life couldn't even. I'm certainly not alone.
Breaking points aren't bad. They are like lighthouses in my opinion. When you see a lighthouse you have hope. But until that point you feel like the tumultuous waters will go on forever.... and ever... and ever. But then you see it! The lighthouse. Perspective. Everything changes from that point on.
I'm here to say that Jesus is the perfect Lighthouse. Breaking points are usually when we are most vulnerable. A perfect time for hope to shine brightest.
Jesus wastes nothing. Not one tear drop falls without him seeing it. Not one panic attack escapes His attention. All of the pain, the trials, the stretching and growing - He uses all of it for our good and His glory. Hang in there, He's working His perfect plan.
What amazing perspective He has given to those who look for the Lighthouse. When we reach the end of our strength and turn to Him, He might not take the storm away, but He will always be our Lighthouse. He will always be there to guide us through the storm if we fix our eyes on Him.
Pity party over. Thank you, Jesus.
